An unpleasant experience.
On Tuesday, during Taekwondo training, I have injured my eyes. We were doing sparring practice, my practicing partner had landed a slamming kick on my face while I was charging in. All I remembered was that I heard a suffocated boom, my ear was ringing and then instantly I felt the immerse pain on my left eye and my face. I rolled on the floor due to the unbearable pain, quickly people gathered around and asked me was I okay, I thought it wasn't anything serious, and just needed a break. So my partner pulled me away and let me rest. As I was resting, the pain on the eye and face didn't go away, it didn't subside. Then my eyes was tearing uncontrollably, I felt breathless and started to break out cold sweat. I thought I just needed a longer rest, but after 10 mins the pain was still the same intensity, and I began to feel weak and hungry, then all the sickening symptoms start to manifest. I started to feel nauseous, and dizzy. At that moment I realized it was serious, so I was rushed to hospital. I vomited three times on the way there, and felt completely strength-less and had a strong craving for food, I knew I needed energy to sustain myself. So my friend bought a bread right outside the hospital, but I couldn't swallow a single bite of it, my mouth felt too dried to swallow, and then my hands started to get numb. I told my friend never mind about the food and rush me into the hospital. I was traumatized, I scared that I would collapse and the pain was wearing me down, my mental stae was weakened too. After I was sent into the hospital, nurses quickly, put me on a wheelchair and then pushed me to the sick bay while wait for doctor to come. I was trying to stay conscious and not to give in to the pain and the fear. My heart beat was hastened, and the more I panted the more I felt like vomiting, so I had to focus on controlling my breathe. It was so difficult and took a toll on me. Then doctor arrived, he asked me a series of questions and he did the procedure check ups. Until pain killer was given to me, then I began to calm down, things getting better for a bit. After that, I was lying on the bed and shut my eyes for the whole time when nurses pushed me place to place for different scans, CT scans, eye room, MRI scan. At 1.30 am I was discharged and I was told to come back again on 19 Feb. By then, I didn't realized what really happened to me. The next morning, when I woke up, I still felt pain in my eyes and seeing double vision, then I recalled that what doctor had said to me yesterday, he said that my eye muscle was injured and it caused a misalignment in the left eye, and a small bone fracture below the left eye socket that was suppressing some of the muscles and nerves. I felt scared, I scared that it will be a permanent damage, and become a disability. I was quite downed and worried at that point of time, afraid that it won't heal completed. However, I am grateful that I have a bunch of supportive and caring friends. Messages were sent in asking about my well being , and my churchies were praying for me too. Especially a Taekwondo friend, Chinasu , she was very concerned about me and kept praying for me, I was thankful to have friends like them. This incident also gave me a glimpse of what is it like to be disabled, there are limitations on your body, you couldn't do things you wish to do It also made me somehow related to how other disabled people feel. I was admired for their mindset and positivity to continue to strive and to live even when things are all against them. They must found one or another way to deal with it, to adapt and to survive. As compared to others who are much more physically-challenged people , my injury was nothing.
And now I'm still in the midst of recovery, the pain was lessened, I can see straight without double vision, but my eye movements are still limited, can't really look up and down, it will hurt. And my face is still numb, doctor said that it was due to the shock and the bone fracture below the eye socket. The doctor will review me again two weeks later, to see if the fracture would completely healed by then, or else I have to go through an orperation to fix that. I got to have faith, in God, and in myself, continue to pray that I will heal in time completely. I am now become more grateful than ever, cherish all the things around me more, and never take any thing for granted.
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